the new year or the old year?

2009. wales. exams. school.

school is over and i dont want it to be.

i'm not at home.

my results were a tad low.

but i had the experience of school, and i wouldnt be friends with who i am today.
atleast i had that trip home, with all the funny times, with jess and my uncle terry and alot more
and my exams are over.

things i have to look forward to for next year.
turning 18
getting a job = money.
money = christmas &new years at home.

i plan to save up enough money move to wales and start my career there. who knows what it will be.
hopefully i'll be living there by 2012

i love my life and what it has brought me
but like everyone else i selfishly want more and more

also. i miss my cousin Jade. I wish she would keep in touch. maybe i will talking to her in 2010
aswell as my Cousin mikey

hypocrites

its funny when people call eachother hypocrits because we all are. i'm a big one! without a doubt. but i'm glad i can admit it. i hate it when people i dont know call out of cars to me. but it is fun when you're the person in the car.
i hate it when people pull jokes on me. but i love pulling jokes on other people.
we all can give but we can not take with these things.
we can give our opinions. but can't listen to others.
we can laugh at people, but not have people laugh at us.
we are all the same and we are all pretty much unintended bullies.

i can give advice..but not take it.

we all think we are always right, because in our minds we are. and its a good thing.

it doesnt matter once you have grown up a bit though, life goes on and you begin to care less of what people think of you.

the cause of this blog relates to someone calling me a hypocrite and me laughing because i realised i am one, and so is the person calling me one. and so is everyone elses in a way. its actually kind of funny.

everyone do what you want to do

The blogs I write are never usually whats going on inside my head.
So here it is.
About 5-6 months ago someone told me to become vegetarian, and being the pushover I am I stopped eating meat. This honestly didnt change my views on things at all. and quite frankly i'm not much of an animal person, birds freak me out.
The only animals I like are dogs and cows, and thats the way its always been, I am not all of a sudden one with nature just because i've stopped eating meat. and if people didnt eat meat there would be to many animals in the world.
So I guess the reason why I am still vegetarian is out of fear and guilt.
This is nothing to do with the animals, the only reason I became vegetarian in the first place is because i was scared the person who told me to wouldnt approve of me if i didnt, and i wouldnt be suprised if he actually didnt approve of me.
and the only reason why i still am not eating meat now is because im scared other people wont approve of me, and still, i wouldnt be suprised if they wont.
but the thing is, people chose to do and think what they want. I don't want to be a vegetarian, and im sure other vegetarians dont want to be either. i'm losing me protein, I dont feel as energetic, i'm sleepy, my skin is turning weird. and i enjoy eating chicken. And i havent eaten it for half a year. And i am going to start eating it again because i want to.
I'm not going to try and impress people by showing them i can live without meat, ofcourse i can. but i dont really want to. And i want to do what i want, and i want to say what i want, and i want to have my own opinions. and other people should say their own aswell.
some things get forced upon people and its not fair.

i also hate how people judge other people for eating meat. what the hell is with that. i have read so many things with vegetarians saying meat eaters are 'monsters' or 'murderers'. and no its not just judd. its plenty of people. Some people just don't eat meat because its the 'cool' thing to do these days.
I don't need people giving me guilt trips.

And don't just assume i'm wrong because of my spelling mistakes, or poor grammar. because i know exactly what i'm talking about. i may not be as smart as most. but i know what i'm saying.

nobody should let other people try and change you. or try and make you feel guilty for the things you do. just be who you are. theres no better way.

shopping

im going to get mothers chrimbo pressie today, its kinda sad cause mum hasnt told me to get dads chrimbo present.
soo im kinda in a fiddle

this is what i do

today i was sitting with my legs in the pool, watching laura and the baby splash around and stuff.
and i was laughing at aleisha because she was laughing. (she loves the water) and all of a sudden laura shouts out 'BEE!!' and i nearly fall in because i jumped. turns out laura was joking and i could have killed her...
a moment later she called out 'BEE!!' again... and this time i jumped straight into the pool, fully clothed, because i didnt want to get stung. but there was a bee there that time, so i pretty much saved myself. hahahaha i hate bees :(
but then i had a nice swim in my clothes. :|

i just realised

i laugh too much (yeah old news)
but what i actually just realised is how in the hell can you laugh too much!?
why?
its like i start laughing and then someone goes 'oh here she goes, when will it stop?'
i dont want to stop! i love laughing, and i consider myself lucky from the amount of things i find funny, because if i didnt i wouldnt laugh as much, there for i wouldnt be as happy.
i guess when i laugh its my way of showing im happy, if you get me? and i laugh alot because i am usually happy? i dunno its just the way i am.

and i dont like it when im smiling to myself and someones like 'what are you smiling at' cause the truth is i have no idea what im smiling at im probably just happy.

the post man enter's the ward house

haha so the post man comes into reception the other day, and asks me to sign something, i said 'i can't do that i'll just get my mum'
hahahaha and then i called up the stairs 'MUUUUMMMMMMM' and dad calls back down 'YEEEPPP!' and i just pretend its normal..and i call back up 'THE POSTMANS HERE!' and then i say to the post man ' she's just coming' and i smile and leave...hahaha his face was priceless and then my dad comes down, and talks to the postman. poor postman :)

im evil pure evil

:|

hello :)
ely says hello.
stefans staring
ely says 'no i didnt'
judds singing
im typing
stefans still staring into space..
judds paused.... keeping singing juddles..
....
hes started again :) yeah!
hes singing his and woodys song
elys playing the harmonica...
shes shit at it.
i wanna go :|
GOODBYE

back to boredality

i really feel like doing somehting but i'm stuck here posting a blog about it!
i hate busy people.
haha :)
tomorrow i will find someone (L)

parents

I have no secrets to myself, but there is no one who knows everything about me, there are some things that i can tell people and there are some things i can't. i love to talk, i hate being ignored. I am loud, and i am quiet.
I am just like both of my parents.
its funny when dad and i fight, we both have to end it. and we both can't be ignored so when we try and ignore eachother we both end up fighting again, constant circle's, and when my mum and i fight. its just one sentence and then tension.
then we all get over it.
and when it comes to sence of humor.. i'm just like my dad all up! we don't like being serious. my dad is still a child, and i know i'll still be a child when im his age aswell.

okay IM BORED!

maddi and ely

are back and black...........and red ...hahahahaha
so last night we go to ely's for dinner because i missed them oh so much, we had a little christmas show off jenna whilst eating dinner which was nice.
ely came back all bronze and shit....maddi will be bronze soon. shes a bit paranoid because ely said it looked like she has rabies. hahahahahaa. SUN SCREEN KIDS. so anyway they bought me and mady a couple of bracelettes, and i took a picture :) THANKS GUYS
and they had a great time by the way, incase you were wondering. cause i was wondering, and they did. :)

yeah i look a mess I JUST HAD A SHOWER OKAY!?!

pimped

yayyy i worked out how to pimp my blogger!
it gives an ocean vibe.....i copied madison's myspace picture....i love the colour of her room :|
:)
my header picture doesnt really fit in with the layout though...
oh well :D

ohh wow

its decemeber and i didnt even realise it..
ely turns 18 this month WOW! then theres only 2 left to turn 18 :) me and maddi
and then i'm after ely and maddis after me!
and its also chrsitmas this month!!! and i just realised that this was a big year.... i went home this year! i finished school this year, i bonded with friends this year. i love seeing how much people have matured since younger years, just looking back and seeing how people have grown is touching :)

thoughts

now that i'm finished school, i think i will be reading more, you'd think i would read more whilst i was in school :S.. but i find concentrating easier when i'm not worrying. hahaha, anyways i'm currently reading the ring. and i've already made a fair way through the book and i only got it today, i know that i would never get that far in this sort of book in one day if i was still in school. its pretty cool, i actually know what i'm reading! the words arent going blury! hahahaha maybe i will learn more now that i've finished school? :) and i've got a whole 2 other books to read after this, i love reading.

fluro face paint!

so the other day when i was bored, i get a phone call that saved my life, it was mady wanting to do something, so she came over. we wined and dined and hungary jacks, large chips and large onion rings...very healthy :) and then scurried off back to my place, and opened my windows and sang to by passer's, that was quite fun, but we got bored of that quickly. We then put face masks on to make our skin smooth, it worked quite well, the we ended up with our feet in the bath :S (mady's idea) and i decided to go through the top draw in my bathroom, and i came across some fluro face paint crayons! and i was like 'woah' and i started to draw on my leg, and mady joined, and we had a crazy idea of grafitting our legs with fluro face paint crayons, so we did. we also put it on our lips and noses :) and these were the results.








oh hi dylan!












afterwards we had even more healthy food! we had pizza. and coke.. whilst watching freaky friday :)
good times !

howdy

ooooo red! not bad :)
my oh my i have been so bored lately. i just wish i had money so i could go places. i've spent the whole week cleaning out my room and i'm still not done.
purple!
hahaha
had a weird dream last night........ i remembered it in the shower, but now i've forgotten again, i should really write these things down, my mind goes far in my dreams...........
....blue
:) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)

ASDFGHJKL
I'M GOING LOCO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
well better go finish off my room joyyyyyyyyy.....

random story

just felt like telling this. its making laugh out loud! hahaha

the night after grad i slept at ely's, the day before ely and maddi left to go to figi.
so anyway, i'm fast asleep, its just getting lightish, and something doesnt feel comfortable. so i wake up, and there's ely staring at me and smiling. i didnt even say anything i just look at her, and shes just facing me, like this; ':)'
i kind of have the blankets off me so she covers me with the blankets, and pats me on the head and turns around and goes back to sleep.
i tell her in the morning and she doesnt remember a thing.
shes a funny one that ely.
a phsyco sleeper though, she punches me in the face while she sleeps. and yes its happened a number of times! other times she elbows me in the ribs. one time i got really cranky and i was like 'FUCK OFF EL' cause she really hurt me, and i pushed her and she slammed into the wall. and still didnt wake up hahahahaha
i love her to bits

the things i like and dislike

(just because im bored ;) )
likes
hands.
eyes.
noses.
toes.
chocolate.
laughter.
sounds.
voices.
bright colours.
bright rooms.
things that make me laugh/smile.
writing.
drawing. (may not be good but i like it!)
beading.
scrapbooking.
guitar.
movies.
drama.
music.
baths in winter.
cold showers in summer.
my pool.
someone playing with my hair.
long hugs.
awkward hugs are funny.
looking back.
looking forward.
the moments.
dresses.
thick socks when my feet are cold.
dressing gown.
winter.
snow.
wales.
beach.
theme parks.
rollercoasters.
singing.
shouting.
winning.
dancing.
loving.
photos.
stars.
night time.
moon.
conversations.
body language.
people who notice.
kindness.
beauty.
excitement.
helping.
when people take my advice.
when i'm happy.
ely.
mady.
maddi.
jess.
friends!
christmas.
bonding.





dislikes.
argueing.
shallow people.
bones cracking.
needles.
putting people down.
tension.
bath plug.
when im restless.
when im bored.
when im alone.
feeling alone.
hunger.
thirst.
judgmental people.
looking down on people.
having braces.
mood swings.
tantrums.
being annoying without meaing to!
my sisters taste in music :P
people who dont care.
being ignored.
being disapointed.
nuts.
heat.
pet birds.
magpies.
spiders.
bugs.
mornings.

you know what?

my sister is the most annoying person in the world. she takes my clothes, and i never get them back, she's agro, you have to be very careful of what you say to her.
but overall. she is actually a really good sister. she buys me stuff, takes me for drives when i'm bored, she has my back when i'm in shit with the rents, she sometimes even takes the blame. she takes me to centrelink andwaits with me, she speaks for me when i dont know what to say.
so i guess i'm pretty lucky.
thanks lau

i love

it when people have arguements in the comments of youtube. sometimes im in them ahahahaha.
yeah that just goes to show how bored i have been lately. SOMEONE VISIT ME OR SOMETHING!
my rents are mad at me because i didnt help clean the rooms this morning. i just slept. yeah i should really get a life. i wouldnt mind going on a road trip. that could be fun!
to bad i dont have a fricking car.
yes i am a complainer. i like to complain. maybe my sister will take me for a drive.... :| she wont.

i had a dream i got my braces off last night. it was the best feeling in the world! because i've got so many elastics in this mouth pulling my teeth. im like a human sling shot!
hahaha pretty much all my blogs consist of me rambling

i miss telling my stories

so last night is worth writing about!
yr 12 graduation, the class of 2009!
soooo...my table consisted of mady maddi ely and me and our fam. we had the crappiest table there, kinda funny. trust us to book our table at the last minuite. haha so anyway i like to call our table the special table. simply because we are not normal.
some guy was making a speech and the room was dead silent. and for some reason it was really loud pouring water into a glass. the ice was the loud part. so as this speech was being made maddi pours this water. and it was really loud and she didnt know it would be so she just says 'my apologies' and carries on not listening. at this time i am cracking up laughing at her...and realise im also thirsty so i try and carefully pour my water. and laura gets impatient and pours it really loudly for me and the glass clinks and everything.by this time i am gasping for air im laughing so much..and some people are turning heads, and just as im calming myself, ely just pours the water without a care in the world! and then i was like 'HAHAHAHAHHAHAA'...
also my mum and dad and roby put stars on their faces. and mum and dad had a balloon on their head. and sophie bought tequila. :| it was the bets table :)
maddi also broke down crying. didnt even notice. and i was pretty much making it worse for her by singing 'summer of 69'
mady was amazing as per usual at singing 'almost lover.'
and then afterwards we hit mady's house and chilled with some peeps!

i have finished

friends.........and i'm sad about that. need to get into something new now
oh and i've finished school

gay........

i'm sick of feeling so dull and lame all the time! my parents are already sick of me and trying their best to get me out of the house! hahaha. i dont think anyone can handle to much of me :(
anyways!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hahaha i dont know why i post these things for everyone to read. just felt like writing about it i guess :| i'm not seeking attention don't worry about it sistas!
last night we went to charlottes and got drunk, and i had a bite of a sausage and i feel real bad. i seriously feel as though i punched someone in the face or something haha!
maddi thought it was the funniest thing though. but it actually tasted horrible! so i dont think i will get back on meat! woah veg4lyf? hahahaha
am i a sell out now?
i got my haircut today.. wanted to keep it long, she cut half of it off.. cool.
:|
oh and i got my dress and shoes for the grad finally hahaha

happy birthday

MADISON DORMER
Mady's turn, wow i'm on a roll i have found my new love for writing blogs about people :)
helly everybody, this here is madison dormer, she is 18 today, shes all grown up! well i find it weird. :|
so when I first met this young lady, we were in yr 6, getting shown around albury high, and we both discovered we were in the stupid class.. :| cooooooooool so yeah we got along pretty well, she was a crazy mofo though, she was evil, she still is. yeah most people havent seen that side to her!
she is beautiful, friendly, shy, outgoing, creative, funny..you name it she seriously had the lot.
theres a word for it. maybe its carisma? i cant spell for shit.
she has a picture of my arse crack on the side of her bed she loves me that much :) hahahahaha tables have turnnneeeeed.
i dont think you realise how much i actually care for you mady, i just get scared sometimes you know? i love you just as much as i love the other guys, but sometimes i wish we were closer, its not anyones fault! and i really love spending time with you! your really fun! but im just a scaredy cat that you dont feel the same way? haha
by the way folks, this girl has made my cry twice in my life. and both times were the way she sings, shes got a beautiful voice mady! i dont know why your so shy about it! never knew you could hit those notes in halleujia, your seriously awesome! like evrything about you is! theres nothing wrong! your perfect! i love you so much
happy birthday mady x
hope you have a great year of being an adult! i'll be there in 4 more months just wait! ha

yabbering

im really bored. i've got 3 windows on msn, ely's just gone offline! hahaha cool. and the other 2 windows arent talking to me motherfucker. i dont care i've got my blog to complain to! hoorayy :)
GUESS WHAT I FOUND OUT I CAN DO!
burn cd's!! its fun!! im making a playlist right as i speak!
might put a random pic on here after i finished writing about how cool i am
i keep on looking back and laughing at ely doing the impression of one of my sisters friends! HAHA cracks me up .... 'don't you remember him maddi he was like this' *does funny face that looked just like him*
just downloaded a bunch of old songs and now i want moreeeeeeeeeeee but i cant think of any atm..
zombie zombie ZOMBIE EH EH EH
went for a drive today with my agro sister, i was embarressing her infront of the 'hot' guys...i seriously dont know what she sees in some people hahaha!
mmm dormz b'day tomorrow,thats when i shall write about her in my blog tomorrow, shes hitting the big one eight..its so weird that one of us is going to be 18 tomorrow, i think its crazy.
and then next month elys 18, and then 3 months later i'm 18 and then 3 months after that maddis 18!
please dont let us drift apart!
haha my fear of that comes out in pretty much all my blags :| woopsies! i'm not clingy :|
hmmm hmmmm hmmm what else happend today :| watched some friends, OH i went for a swim in my very small pool yesterday, i dont actually mind it being small, its like a little private area thats why i like it :) and then afterwards i just listen to my ipod with a towel on my face, sometimes i take my guitar down there, its the second best thing about where i live, my first best thing is my room because it MY ROOM, even though its cramped and sucky! haha my room will always be my fabourate place in the house no matter where i live.

my aunties going home tomorrow, cant say i saw her much this visit, dont think she wants much to do with me until im 18 and the legal age to go into pubs :| haha

oh and my mother is gone! and i dont know when she will be back! so its just me and dad!
i'm also very clingy towards my mother, dont know what i'd do without her haha would i survive?

okay cool i think im done with this boring blog ima find a pic
...
please enjoy this pic of ely eating, she only knows my dad in this picture and the rest is history

cheery cheery?

MADDIS TURN :)
ahh maddison beyer you ready for this?
you ready for the intake of what CERI ANN WARD loves about chu!!!
okay bloggers so this is maddison beyer, or should i say baddison meyer? good call ceri.
shes my smartest friend, and she doesnt even know how smart she is sometimes, i can ask her what any word means and she wouldnt bag me out for not knowing like other people would,
i could trust her with my life, she is loyal to all 3 of us, shes the person i can sing around and instead of telling me to shuttup she would join in. She always understands what im trying to say to her, and she always sympathises on the way i feel. out of the 4 of us she may be the youngest, but she is the wisest.
i tell you everything maddi just because i know you wont judge, you are a beautiful person dont you forget that about yourself!
I can always count on this girl to laugh at my lame jokes, and even when they're really really lame, she gives me a pity laugh. Shes one of the funniest people i know and we can relate to eachother so much... if you ever see her spare a moment to talk to her chances are you will be entertained!
i love you maddi I LOVE YOU SO MUCH
you know you always want to hear that from me, but i know you know its true. i can not say those words as a lie baddison meyer, i love chu i love chu i love chu I LOVE YOU MADDISON BEYER..
getting lesbian? cool. always go a little too far.
and maddi...........i do love your eyes you fisher
who doesnt? anyone ever seen eyes so blue?
but still. i'm the only one out of the 4 of us with really brown eyes so im the prettiest!
dont ever think i favor anyone other than you maddi, because if im doing it im joking, your one of my favourate people! i'm so glad you've learnt to like me...and then learnt to love me and then because friends with me and then formed the foursome and the ways things are now? they couldnt be better, whenever your upset think about what you have with us! because thats what i do. i think about what i have with you guys and nothing else makes me more happier

Baddison Meyer everybody!




maddi says (8:21 PM):
yes
so whatre you doing
***
ceri says (8:21 PM):
youll seeeee

maddi says (8:22 PM):
a surprisseee
hahahah
ohhhh
!!!
a fight?

ceri says (8:22 PM):
yeah you might hate it
a fight?
HAHAH WHAT THE HELL?

sleep texting?

last night i was sleeping beautifully in slumber land...seriously having the best sleep, cant even remember my dream..... ooooo that just makes me want to go back to bed!
so anyways, lets stick to the story here.... laura wakes me up and im at the train station with her for a free train ride...to table top..it was kinda cool...STICK TO THE STORY CERI! yeah and then i get a text off maddi saying
maddi 'haha wtf?'

ceri 'what?'

maddi 'that text you sent me'

ceri 'what are you on about fool?'

maddi *sends text i sent her back to me* 'think you sent this to the wrong person ce'

ceri 'what the hell i didnt send that'

maddi 'it says it got sent at like 5 in the morning'

by this point i thought it was laura, she said ...'why would i come in your room at 5 in the morning and send a text'

i said 'touche'

so then i went in my outbox and saw if i actually did send it...which i did... and the text had infact said

'just woke up from a dream that i was married to you and i didnt want it... i was sad...felt bad sorry we cant get married it map a bad bad feeling in my dream'

yeah, doesnt sound anything like i would say to maddi but the phone was indeed next to me on my bed all night, with a text off mum and the phone was under my pillow....creepy huh! hahahahahah

dream time

i had the weirdest dream last night...
we were all in the pac, and we were all performing something, at first i thought i was gonna perform my mono....but i didnt :S so anyways mady dormer was up first performing a song... and she was like a whiz on the piano but singing really bad opera. yeahh... so anyway ended up at this place and we were watching it on video and i forgot what i had performed.... and we were watching maddi beyer do a monologue...and she wasnt scared which was odd...and then dad chanegs the channel and puts a movie on and im like 'NO DAD CHANGE IT BACK I CANT REMEMBER WHAT I DID!' so he does....and there i am in this sparkly dress with a pole...and a mic singing 'i tell you what i want what i really really want' and im like NO DAD CHANGE IT BACK CHANGE IT BACK... and dad was like 'ceri what is this?' and i really didnt know and i founf myself saying 'they made me do it' and then i got woken up by a text off maddi, who stole my idea for a perfectly good blog btw.



someone please tell me who did this? do i have some sort of secret admirer!?? YAYYYYYY
KIDDING

my friend ely.

don't worry other friends you will get whats coming to you.
but ely i was just going through pics, and your blogs and just reminising on you..
and you really are the diamond in the ashtray! fishhook is a smart one
you've got so many hidden talents
no one knew you were good at art! and look at you! your so creative you could turn something simple to something extrodinary <------- did i spell that right?
no one knows you can sing, yeah i've heard you sing along to yourself in the shower...around the house...and sometimes even in the toilet you freak.
you really are something special el, and i dont think you know it...but take a look at yourself in the mirror, you are beautiful and so is everything that you do. i am blessed to have met you nearly 8 years ago, and i love how we are still going strong ... never forget how beautiful you really are, i love you forever, and i mean it..its impossible for anyone to stop loving you el, you really are a gift put on this earth, and your one of the few people who helped me appreciate life and what i have...your part of who i am and i love that about myself...its all because of you DIAMOND!



ely loves the things that matter, and doesnt miss out the little things in life
shes also fat and eats alot of cookies...yeah el someone had to tell you..
you need to lose weight your obese.

just because im bored

me and my mum never have nice pictures together hahaha this is as good as it gets....

about my last blog, dad just phoned me because mum was to scared to talk to me... just makes me want to cry my own mother is to afraid to talk to me. what does that make me? oh god im so sorry if i really am that scary, i sent her a text and then she wouldnt call me back because she was to scared! ....okay enough of me being emo, im sorry dearest mother i love you.

and heres my fave vintage pic of phil and my dad from when theyw ere my age! haha i love it.





thats just me sending a pic of me that i took because im bored...and i liked it and i didnt know what else to do with it hahaha

mr lonely

or should i say miss lonely? i seriously have come to the conclusion that i hate being alone! i cant stand it! i go crazy, and now here i am, ive been invited to elys tonight but i have to go home, which means i cant go home because julie will be locking up the motel. sure i know what your thinking 'why don't you have a key?'
well my blogger friends i am a 17 yr old turning 18 who is not trusted with a key, and it depresses me. my parents seriously don't trust me with anything. I'm not even aloud to have a lock on my door! i wanted a lock for my privacy, but no i could be smoking bongs or having fricking gang bangs.
i love my parents i really do, but im so darn over protected, and one day they will need to learn to let me go otherwise they wont see it coming when the day actually comes, when i move out of home, out of town, maybe even out of the country! i know i should be telling them that and not writing it on a blog, but nothing would come of it except for a big fight. i love how they care... but seriously the fights we get in to are so stupid that we dont even remember what we are argueing about anymore.

mum - maybe im the only responsible parent

me - and maybe your the only parent who doesnt trust me
*that sure shut her up*

anyways, about me being lonely...hahahaha when exams are over and everyones stopped studying people are going to want to get rid of me! but i'll enjoy the company until that day comes!

okay sorry for the angry emo blog, i love my parents just so you know.

reminising

i seriously am an angry jealous person and i really do hate that about myself. and then i get over it and write a blog saying how much it annoys me that i am so annoying, but im going to get straight back into that angry stage! what the hell is wrong with me! but in my defence sometimes people do it to me because they know how i will react.
i dont care how angry i get, just act like it doesnt matter! this isnt about anything recently, well it is but im not referring to it. but seriously people get scared of me! i dont want anyone to be scared of me! i was just thinking back to the little days, every little arguement that ever occured was my fault for being an angry pain in the arse and taking it out on people! even with my mum! (not with my dad he usually starts it haha)
dont take it seriously when im angry over something stupid, i will get over it in about 5 minuites, no joke. i really annoy myself! and even when i know im doing this shit i dont stop! i just keep on going.
to all the people who have suffered my temper tantrums, who must be everyone, i am truely sorry and i will try to pipe down.

anyways, just watched step brothers, seriously cracked me up so much, i havent laughed so hard in a movie for ages! my tummy was cramping! haha yes im a lonely soul watching movies today how sad.

'your voice is like a combination between fergie and jesus!'

i hope someones having a get to gether after exams with a fire so i can burn my school work! :D :D

heyhey!

sitting here, eating a banana......i have an exam in an hour. im going down in this one! hahaha ohh shit.
theres really not much to say, i could be revising like a normal person would do, but nah lets write a pointless blog. :)
OH OH OH OH OH OH OH
i have something to say.... so last summer my mum got me this dress, size small..and i was like 'mum no way im going to fit into that' could hardly get it over my head...so we just gave it to ely...
the other day for some reason i was going through elys draws... i cant rememebr why :S sorry el haha
and i happend to find this dress, at first i wanted ely to wear it but she said 'it sits weirdly on me' and then i felt reckless and decided to try it on myself.....AND IT FIT! so now that dress is mine again. thanks el :) another dress for summer. i gave her my t-shirt cause it looked better on her... so dont think im being selfish, she doesnt like how the dress looks on her!!

oh and the person who convinced me i had most aries traits...maddi :| told me i wasnt a real aries cause i was born in march! thats bullshit! anyway, apparently she was just trying to rise my aires temper, which she did haha.

yeah so we went to judds and ouijad on halloween.....spooky or silly? i do not know.
and ely got bored went into the kitchen and just opened a pack of chips and started eating them.. it was so funny! i walked in and she looked at me and smiled with a mouth full of chips and went 'shhhhhhhhh' then im like 'i wont tell if you give me some'
hahaha el and i just eating judds food happily...sorry judd! it was so funny though! elys face! HAHAHA
'el what are you doing?'
'shhhhhhh'
HAHAHAH
and i dont know if i was dreaming, i forgot to ask... but i think mady thought i was possessed because i was breathing weirdly! im sorry! haha i do breathe weirdly when i fall asleep though. it was probably something to do with my hayfever.

ps - i love festy who loves msn.

fellow bloggers.

just so you know, before Maddi writes her precious blog about me being a lesbian, they're putting words in my mouth those bitches.

dirty diana NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO dirty diana LET ME BE. yesterday i went to see 'this is it' with the foursome - 1, because ely is in melbourne... and seriously me and maddi were the only ones getting into it...how can you not bop along to billie jean!?! ....yeah everyone was boring.. but we kept it alive, i think we were kinda annoying though...haha i thought everyone would be singing along!
LET A WOMAN BE A WOMAN AND A MAN BE A MAN
haha sorry im just listening to prince now. :| because maddi only has 2 micheal jackson songs on her itunes...the IDIOT. shes anti social aswell.... we get home ladt night... 'yeaahhh i'm gonna read' so i was just on the laptop wanting to talk to her but all she was doing was quoting new moon to me and crying about how sweet they were....hehehehehehhehehe i can embarress too :)


oh i found this site on starsigns, and then maddi showed interest in me :) because i was reading it aloud to her. the writer of this one was quite professional, and we loved it.

except for the part where it says 'so you've fallen in love with an aries, and dont know whether to congratulate you or sympathise with you.' mother fucker. and they kept on referring to ariens as babies.
but i put some of what that site said on my new about me on myspace :) you should read up on that by the way... and i never get any love on my blogs..someone comment it this time

goodbye

cool driving times

today was fun, my and my sister did deanies, and i sung out the window, i hate people who do that when im watching, but when its you doing it its fun haha, and we went to wodonga and drove around there for a while, and i was just singing to random people out the window :)
haha sorry wodonga people!!!
it was seriously more fun than it sounds though! i was even moshing, and doing the whole night at roxberry thing hahaha and laura was like 'CERI STOP IT'
and then she realised it was fun and joined me
hahahaha

exam no 1

finished..........right now i dont care how i went im just glad its over!
my story was a peice of shit once again though...except this time i had a whole story planned out but it didnt have anything to do with the fricking question so i had to make one up on the spot..
and it was about this girl who gets bullied and they end up being fricking besties..... cool story ceri.. the examiners will read it and think im special :)

anyway, i couldnt get to sleep last night, all tossy and turny...so i didnt sleep at all, so glad im not seeing anyone else today because i might go loco.
but weird thing is...maddi ely and mady also didnt get any sleep last night! its cause we're besties...
HAHA imagine if my exam story was my life story........ MY BESTIES USED TO BULLIE ME BUT I TOUGHT THEM THEY DONT NEED TO BULLY!
so going to pick up my auntie from melbourne tomorrow...... it shall be fun :) her name is gail she is from wales.....

IM WRITING ANOTHER ON CAUSE I CAN

haha im going off at my friends right now, they probably think im being serious but im not. im just tired and talking shit.
okay maddi you can be joey (maddi didnt like being ross)

elynorsmathwack says:
i posted it
elynorsmathwack says:
now comment mine
ARIES - lovin talmalmo says:
anyone comment mine?
elynorsmathwack says:
negative
ARIES - lovin talmalmo says:
yeah well shuttup

HAHAHAHAHAHA im a bitch :(
i got all deep with ely before on msn...and that made me realise how long its been sinse ive been deep with her! and i miss that :(

and maddi all of a sudden wants to meet new people! :( i guess it would be good? maybe im ross...nah im rachel :)


maddison says:
hahahahha
maddison says:
s000 \\
maddison says:
did uslike it
maddison says:
im going in for the killllll
maddison says:
or is it
maddison says:
im doing it for the kidssss
ARIES - lovin talmalmo says:
for the thrill YOU DICKHEAD

so theres my random outbusts to maddi AND ely...
and maddi i love you man
and ely! i miss our bonding times maybe im just saying that because im tired.
but then again maybe im just saying my true feeling because im tired
we will have the ultimate bonding experience after exams
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo


ARIES - lovin talmalmo says:
do somehting funny in this convo so i can send it
maddison says:
that was goingto be my main point
maddison says:
i love you man
maddison says:
?
maddison says:
nup
maddison says:
damnit
maddison says:
i cant be funny on spot
ARIES - lovin talmalmo says:
HEHE
ARIES - lovin talmalmo says:
good enough.


by the way im aries if your wondering hahaha

so no one told that it was gonna be this way!

CLAP CLAP CLAP CLAP
so maddi mady and ely, i was kinda hoping that after school we can live like they do in friends! it would be so fun! theres no way that i am going to be like everyone else and lose contact with my highschool friends! PISS OFF MEETING NEW PEOPLE..im sorry new people. we can meet one say haha.
wow tonight i am having mood swings, i need anger management right now.. hmm i know what your all thinking..its not that FOOLS. HA that just got me angry! i must be over tired!
so its 1 in the morning and im on the computer...because i snuck down stairs while mother and father were sleeping...they could be awake right now getting a drink or something.but im risking it AND IM FRICKING SCARED.

today i was reading by the pool and it was really nice, but i think i caught a bit of sun on my shoulders :( BUT ANYWAY point iss.. end of the book you know my new way of knowing im gonna cry???? glasses fog up. and i cant see for shit. seriously how can i read when im blind, so i take the glasses off and now im crying and i cant see through the frigging tears...but i got there in the end...stupid depressing book that i love.....

im on msn to maddi and ely, and now im laughing because i realise i am really going crazy..im a cranky bitch! reminds me of phoebe on friends when she was pregnant.

OHHH im gonna name who the foursome would be one friends.
ely would be phoebe...dunno why she just would
i would be chandler cause theres a photo of my that looks like him haha
mady would be monica cause shes crazy
and maddi you would be ross.. cause your like him

NO im rachel :)

right im a child. and i need to stop watching friends...hahhaa

so anyways this is me looking like chandler

this is friends

and these are my friends

my sisters keeper

probably one of the most depressing books ever.....but also probably one of my favourate books ever...that makes me a sad sad person.
i also love the movie, i dont care about the different endings, that movie was godamn good!




i dont care about the fact that it makes me cry, i care about the fact at how touching it is... family is everything. my sister and i dont show it, but as different as we are, we both love eachother.



we go way back than anyone else after all...

yellow

yellow
i dont like yellow...
wise words maddi.....wise words.

terry

he's my uncle, he's straight up G
i miss him

memories

the thing i cherish most about life are the memories i have.....
which is why i have photos, scrapbooks, diary, blogger......and i've made a memory wall in my room :)
check it



i have another one aswell, but its not finished, i put on drawings and birhtday cards, and photos and notes from school, anything really! feel free to add to it x

tell me a memory, even if im not in it

studying sucks

amen? amen.

so here i am writing a blog....about nothing, because ive been up to nothing, except from doing random shit to provent myself from studying, i have problems.
so yesterday i wasnt doing anything, so i thought 'this is a perfect opportunity to start studying'
but then i find myself asking mum if she needs anything from the shops! so i go shopping for her and get myself a hot chocolate from hudsons! theres this book i really have to finish, so i start reading it and i decide to have ANOTHER bath, (i did this earlyer on in the week when i was meant to study) i figured i could read while i was in the bath, did not end up reading, but i have gone through half the book which is pretty good, i read in the night time haha..
so today i didnt study because i went to the gym with my mum and her friends....which was a nightmare...
they were telling eachother i was unfit. (this is my mum and her friend btw, who would have no clue) but the thing was i was jogging on the treadmil, they were walking........ and ive been keeping myself fit for a while now! ive been walking up the frigging monument for crying out loud! ....'Its because she doesnt get anough protein, she refuses to eat meat, even fish! ce why dont you eat fish?' ITS NOT LIKE I WAS GASPING FOR AIR! i was happily jogging with my ipod in not wanting to hear anyone..

mum also told my sister she needed to lose weight today, thats not something you say to my sister, she gets insulted when i bag out gareth gates, but my mother 'has to be honest!'

she once said to ely 'nice belt el' ely was indeed wearing a skirt, there was no right in that one because ely is not her daughter! and the skirt wasnt even that short, and she was wearing tights! AND she has thin legs so she can get away with it!!!

i love my mum its all good, but we all get annoyed at our parents sometimes dont we!

OKAY I KNOW IM NOT THE FITTEST PERSON IN THE WORLD but they have NO right!!
haha im an angry soul what am i going to do with myself?

note to self - dont work on the treadmil next to your mother or your mothers friends, go somewhere with your ipod FAR FAR AWAY!

so when i got back from the gym i watched friends haha

i just remembered

YESYESYES!!

guess what i did?!?!

i told sophie i loved her and it was so comfortable!

im proud of myself :D i'm not heartless! i can love! hahaha

so today i went to wodonga with my sister and my neice and we went to this fair thing :)

MY HOUSE

maddi and ely came over last night..........mady didnt though :( where art thou i havent seen you in ages gurl!?
so anyway we watched carl barron and shit.....and a movie... you know the usual, we also made a video...but i seem to be the only one who thinks its hilarious.....what do you think?

talmalmo, the place of love

so just spent the last couplde of days in talmalmo, its seriously my favourate place in the world.
you dont have to worry about anything, not what you say or how you look or what people think of you, you just do what you want to do, its a place of freedom.
so you cant go to talmalmo without a memory being made, its a beautiful place you see, you have to make memories,
its the place where
-i first drove a car
-i first rode a motor cycle
-i first got drunk with ely :P
-i first laughed so hard i peed myself (haha who cares its tally!:D)

this time was the most free i have ever felt, dont know why, i just knew no one cared... i was singing my heart out to songs i hate, i was running around and rolling on the grass, waking around by myself, and i loved it!
i played knuckles and now i have a massive bruise on my hand, ate 3 bowls of risotto, decorated myself with flower petals and moisteriser HAHA..
i wish mady was there though, it was fun! we missed you!

i'll post pics and videos ASAP
i love talmalmo! x

letters to myself <3

cool week....well not that cool but cool day :)
got a few stories to tell you..........

shower time
so i was having a nice shower... go to my room in my towell and close the blinds then start drying my hair and shit....to my suprise the blinds SHOT OPEN and people are across the road looking up and im just standing there naked...........i was mortified. not to mention i live on the highway so there were also cars zooming passed...AND it was drak outside and my lights were on. so i ducked in shame and never got over it....but im over it now, thats why im telling it on my blog HAHA funny right?

good news
well it all started when maddi went to get her p's.. she had said she wouldnt come back to school if she didnt get her p's......so after double community i was hoping for the best.....and as i was walking to the seats all i could see was a 'haha no.' and i was like MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII
she's got her p's!!! awesome awesome awesome
then she came round to my crib and we went for a cruise...did a couple of deanys and what not. and as we were driving ely was like 'oh yeah ceri i got my soundwave ticket' THE FOURSOME ARE GOING TO SOUNDWAVE!!! LOOK OUT SOUNDWAVE!! im sorry but i love bonding time with my bestest friends!!! it just made me happy, i was depresso because i kept on thinking ely wouldnt get her ticket...but shes got it and im a happy chap! i love you guys!!! mady maddi and ely are the best people you will ever meet...seriously.

letter to myself...
HAHAHA so in english about a year ago we had to write a letter to ourselves saying our goals and shit...pretty sure i didnt achieve any of mine...but im going to recite this letter to you

dear ceri ward
you are cool because you are writing a letter to yourself.
Anyways, try and get a hairdressing apprentiship.
you better have had a job by the time you read this, keep trying or daddy wont be proud.
don't give up on your guitar so you can play well for wales.
don't be afraid to sing your bloody heart out (AHAHAHAHA!!) so far if you have succeeded all of this i am proud of you. or myself, or whatever.
write a wonderfull story i dont care if it is a short story or a novel, but i know you like making up stories.
dont be lazy, physically. because i know you hate homework (TRUE DAT) take dylan out for walkies more he'll love it. dont care what people say or think about you. dont change for anybody, dont give into peer pressure. try and atleast get your Ls because i think you would need a car in the future. you may need to try and lose some weight FATTY! (HAHA!) dont get stressed out and take it out on your friends, ignore your parents when their not being fair..or just do as they tell you
LOVE CERI (YOU)

god i'm a loser........jeez ceri im not that fat! HAHAHAHAHA!! i noticed i got a little deep in some parts... yeah pretty much didnt do any of my goals...i'm ashamed :(




and dearest sophie.. im sorry i left you on facebook dad came in (mother effer) but i noticed you said im always giddy :D

you want to know the reason why im always cheery? its because im always around you guys......you all make me so happy and im thankfull for it! and i love laughing with you








alright........maddi im so proud of you bitch!

RIP drama performances

i havent written a blog in a while! i just havent had much to talk about.....
soo heres a video before we did drama performances
before this i was in a completely phsyco mood... but i'd calmed down by here haha :P
alrighty watch away!

ely farted

trying to cover it up by changing the convo.
but she knows she did
lucky the people sitting next to us have their earphones in 8)
for her...
'how long have you been holding that in for el?'
'i dont know i just laughed at you and it came out'
we're in year 12 and we're the only ones here NOT studying
haha woopsies
i dont wanna be on the computer i wanna sit on a table and talk
but elys anti social :(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(
but the moral of this blog is....ely farted cause i made her laugh and we laughed even more
:)

music makes the people come together yeaahhh

so just got home from music performances, everyone did their thang, family memebers actually came for me this time :) thanks dad and laura...
so anyways, i did mine.....thanks people who help me out in a lovers complaint!! truely appreciate it, i shall get you gifts. yeah none of you will read this anyways :)
got a bit into it this time...usually i get nervous...but people accept my crappy voice so i just did a little dance and chilled pointed at maddi and my dad... dad is the only parent that actually gets embarrest by his daughter hahahaa
and then there was some more peeps...dad liked marshal and sam. he should replace me with you guys :P
and then we ate biscuits and shit...(ely didnt push a little boy out of the way this time!) hahahhaa
and then there was judd (sounded awesome even with a cold!)

AND THEN there were people brought to tears to this performance by a particular lady..
MADISON DORMER
seriously you amaze me...i envy everything about you! you talented girl you!!!!!!
and the other three girls there were awesome too!
dad was singing hallejulia on the way back from the car and i was like SHUTTTUP your ruining it (starts singing it myself) :P
asdfghjklk
might i add i straightend my hair for once today :) just saying..i tied it up anyway
cool story ceri..
this blog is shit i just wanted to post it saying how good mady was
you should listen to her shit!
hahaha should i say shit one more time? shit.
im a hypocrit cause just yesterday i was saying i was sick of swearing :P



okay well im off SEEYAS
xxx

vlog vlog NO 2

baby time

homeland

I think this subject deserves a blog,
when ceri went to wales :)
when i was arriving in porthcawl in a car i was overwhelmed by how green it was...and all flashbacks and memories popped into my head at once, where i fell of my bike when i was first learning to ride, having chips by the prom, swimming in the see in the dark and winter with jess while it was puring down with rain. :)
i arrive at my nans, it gave me a great feeling, like i had never left, she had a new tv and stuff but nothing has really changed in that house, it all smells the same, looks the same feels the same..and i had never felt more at home in my intire life. i know i was overly jetlagged but i just did not want to go to sleep..i was forcing myself to stay awake, there was heaps of people i was dieing to see.
when terry (my uncle) had arrived, he had only been with us for no longer than 2 minuites and i was already in tears of laughter, he still bagged the shit out of me, but only he can get away with it.
so by the time mum dad and laura were having a jetlag nap... i was on the computer talking to jess.. i desperatly wanted to see her...so we decided to meet up.
and there she was..the moment i saw her i dropped all my bags (with my camera and my ipod and my ds all on the top) and pretty much pounced on her, see me and jess have this thing, when we are with eachother we click, we bring ourselves out of eachother.. so after we made a fool of ourselves in public by jumping up and down hugging and screaming, we headed back to her crib and started playing guitar!!
jesses dad rang.. and jess answerd the phone laughing and he knew i was there... haha i just love that about the jones's, we is family......the wards and the jones have clicked since my dad and phil met back in highschool... and they are still going pretty well now
we skip down to generations! haha
me and jess pretty much spent the whole time together, i got to meet her mum mandy and her family on her mothers side! which i never have done, and i've known jess all my life!
i might narrow down the things i did in wales in dot points
- went to the farmers (pub) like every night
- kicked my shoe off at jess's gig and it landed on this poor guys head...HAHAHA a sotry has to be told, jess was like to me 'remember when you kicked you shoe off on the train tracks?" and im like "yeah i was like..." *accidently kicks show off, lands on guys head, guy smells it, i die a little inside*
- oujia'd with jess and jamie, and laughed at how scared jamie was... *comes to play, glass moves...runs out of room, comes back and plays again* i'm sorry jamie but that whole time i was dieing to laugh.
- fell over on a bus while waving at boys (i was being stupid) yeah i can pick up anyone (h)
-went to oakwood park (theme park) and bonded with family and jess:) nanny even came too!! and terry road on a rolercoaster!! it was funny cause hes scared of them! but i love em!!
- i met my cousin evan, he's so cute, and he defaintly got along with aleisha!
- attempted some break dancing at Terry's 50th
- road down a big slide with my skinny jeans on and got a massive plummers, Jess even noticed so i told her she had one too (even though she didnt) i was just trying to make myself less embarrest
- thought jamie asked if he could shoot jess with his gun for fun with his suit on and i got scared.....
- went to some crappy museum but it was fun being with my family because they make any situation funny, then we just played games on the grass? lol
- d&m'd with everyone like a mother licker...esp jess
- got heaps of easter eggs so me and jess had a chocolate fess!!
- Jess and i wrote a song sbout the ouija board and how jamie is a virgin princess, opera style...nearly as good as the rap we made while she was here might post that shizz on my blog actually
- watched phil and jamies acoustic gig and it was one of my last days so sorry if i was a TINY bit depresso that night haha.
there was SO SO SO SO much more big thing but its seriously the little things that cound all the time for me!! i always remember the little things that mean the most to me, wales is my home and always will be, i am from there, i originated from there, i am a true welsh (except for the singing part, but thats just the ward family, we cant sing)
if anyone mentioned in the blog is reading this, just know that i miss you all so very much and not a day goes by when im not thinking of you. i love australia i really do! but wales is my home and i will never forget it. and it always breaks my heart to leave my home...or to have someone i love leave me, its the hardest thing in the world... don't get me wrong i love everyone in australia!! i just miss everyone in wales.


you found the ghost in me
you found the person in my ghost
i made you with a pen
it was quater to ten
oujia oh ouija how did i meetcha?
jamie thought ceri was moving the glass
but she wasnt
HE THOUGHT HE THOUGHT
omg i think its right! for i am the virgin princess!

HAHAHA mine and jesses song about the ouija board.. i might have forgotten most of it but the virgin princess was the funniest bit anyways.... *crickets* YOU JUST HAD TO BE THERE

my mady and jess about 3 years ago when jess came and visited me, me and jess wrote a rap, mady came over and badda bim badda boom YOU HAVE THIS VIDEO!



please let me have the exuse that this was ages ago (not that i wouldnt do this sort of thing today)

i wish all days were as fun as yesterday

"yesterday all my troubles seemed so far away"
haha thats not me being emotional, that song came into my head and i wanted to type it down.


im never the sort to do this, but do you ever just not speak because your just watching? and laughing? yeah its nice.. i rarely do it because im the sort of person who has to be in the conversation.. haha sorry i was just thinking about how much of a dickhead i can be sometimes...not towards people, but yeah sometimes i tend to look for attention without even noticing it, but when i look at videos of me and shit im always like HEEEEYYYYYYYYYYYYYY 8) 8) oh god i hope im not like that all the time.
sooo if you ever think 'woooaahhh ceris being loud' i really dont mean it :)

so my story of yesterday
it was a nice day, i must say... maybe i should stop rhyming hey? OKAY ENOUGH see i'm even like this while writing blogs
SOOOOOOO my story of yesterday
im going to say it like it IS a story

yesterday (all my troubles seem so far away(just had to)) was fun and funny and lovely and shit
maddi had fun driving without a liscence (the bad girl) and i had fun on the swings :) ... yayyy (the nice things that happen when you decide not to go to school for a day)
then we did nothing...but it was something, if you get me? its just that feeling when something is there even though your sitting around doing nothing you just feel happy? you better know what i mean bloggers :|
then we went to judds house... and when we got in we all laid on the couch waiting for them to come out but they didnt! thats why the joke got ruined. :|
so we just went in his room and watched videos on his laptop... mostly effed up porn..for some reason he has beastianity porn on his laptop? smoooth judd. then we watched his home movies and he was taking a shit somewhere? BTW JUDD THIS IS PAYBACK FOR TELLING EVERYONE MY PEE STORY (but i dont really care it was kinda funny) and then we all just sat around and laughed and shit.. and me ely maddi and mady were argueing on wether maddi said if jimmy was a gemini or not (she didnt say it btw)
maddi you competitive bitch.
i kinda wanna put pictures up from yesterday but i have none :(
OH OH OH OH OH OH OH
AND THEN!!!!
we leave judds...casually go and get in the car....the drive off a little...do it again...they drive off a little again...so i start screaming...maddis pissing herself laughing, and this was like in the middle of the night and they drive off!! so i run back into judds house and wait for them to come knocking..they do, i get in the car and madys not in there and me and el tell stefan to DRIIIIIIIIVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVEEEEEEEEEEE
ofcourse he wouldnt
so that pay back made me feel like shit because it didnt work.
but we eventually got back to mady's and watched maddi get drunk on goon...i really wanted to film it but we didnt end up doing it so i just fell asleep..
sophs comfy to sleep next to shes a good spooner...dont you hate spooning people and its not cuddly? yeah im talking shit again
SO TODAYYYYYYY
me and el went to see beauty and the beast..and el fell asleep (hahahaha) that son of a bitch, there was hardly any cast! where were all the casts!! but yeah it was an okay piece of beauty and the beast work.
then we got home and watched mighty boosh and i fell asleep
then el went home
then i watched friends with my sister
and here i am now! :)
btw...i probably should mention who was involved in this day there was - sophie ely mady d maddi b madison t (where was maddi r?) stefan judd edwina jimmy
andd yeah i wasnt there.....

wow this was a long piece of shit of a blog... who read it all?


haha our true selves shining through

yeah dont know why i put a pic of a tree on here



guilty as charged :|

now i'm being anti social

i came to write a blog because ely and maddi were playing a frigging board game, so i'm just like IM GONNA GO WRITE A BLOG
and now they've stopped playing and everyone having d&ms....what they don't know is that im listening.. :)
right now i am at elys with maddi soph and stefan and i feel as though i really need a shower...ooooooooohhhh to much information? well its okay i'll have one after i write this :)
yesterday was sad but happy anf funny and sad again..
i had my drama hsc... i think i went like heaps under time... but i did okay..i hope :|
and waiting was the boringest/funnest thing ever, we played big brother and made videos on judds lappy and had sing alongs and shit! :)
that was fun guys! haha before i went on for my monologue i nearly had a mental breakdown...when they call for you it seriously feels like your going out there to die..but your not you just going to perform a monologue! you just get that scared for screwing up.

right then, so afterwards we all met up after school, judd got his lip peirced...and he was a depresso and i didnt like it, but then he was alright later on..
we went to maccas for tea and went and saw a movie! it was push! it was goooood. (dakota needed a longer skirt though, judd wouldnt mind raping her) and i kinda was the only one who didnt get the movie.... cool ceri. but i understood the whole concept so im not completely dumb.

THEN we went back to elys. (maddi ely jezza judd and i) and we told funny stories :) may not tell you what their about though because this would be ONE embarressing blog!
then stefan rocked up withe lollies...and we ate all his snakes. im sorry stefan. then we all nearly feel asleep so judd and jezza went home and stefan stayed the night...yayyy

now its the next day and soph rocked up in the morning
and i kinda promised her i'd give a d&m in this blog :)
but i want to dont get me wrong boiiii

right so sophie, whenever someone is feeling down or upset you always say the right thing and give the right advice, you just always make people feel better. sophie has a gift with deep convos, and the best thing is she likes to help other people, she likes to talk about other peoples problems other than her own, and shes beautiful in that way....not to mention shes hot (in a non lesbian way)
SOPH ONE FAVOUR
stop calling lesbian
love you!!
:)

heres some pictures of ely on maddis soldiers
(what i was talking about being the funniest thing ever,sorry about the awesome quotes)

step one

step two


and no step 3 for you!!8)

drama time

right now i am in drama tech using judds laptop...i feel so cool i should be in starbucks or some shit.
wondering what judd is doing? hes do his group performance!! yaayyyyy (loolking good guys!) you guys dont argue as much as my drama group:(
i love ely :)
it appears to be fucking plane!!! go darcie (judd dont boss darcie around) judd made a group member of mine leave and a group member of his cry all in one day!!!! judd is evil
just like co co slams
he has no idea im writing this
im gonna say what hes doing
- discussing what to do with his group
- spinning around like a ballerina
-saying he loves god
- catches my eye (still has no idea im writing a blog)

i wanna go home now..
OHHH last night was so funny i couldnt stop laughing
from now on im am known as ceridaberi :P
i filmed myself laughing but im not posting it its gay...actually i will the day i get 100 comments on this shit :) (all from different people)

when i was practising my monologue before i was in killer mode until ely started talking to me about something about her blogspot...that fool
shes reading this now and laughing....

ITS A BOMB
judds yelling like an army soldier

okie dokes i might start to wrap it up now
even though i am really boredddddd
the left right left is looking syncronised now1!!!!!
well done guys! :)
okay seriously im gonna go now

'ILL TELL YOU WHAT WE'RE FIGHTING FORRRRR'

BYE GUYS 8)

this blogs for maddi to read when she gets home form work

REAL LIFE CERI STORY TIME
-my drama feedback from last night
"dont hold babies...people were going around holding babies...just dont do it!"
thanks miss gleason (y) that helped me alot :)
-and omgomgomgomgomgomg
TODAY IN ENGLISH JOEL DAY SAID HE WAS GONNA CUT HIS HAIR!
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!
-i have come to acceptance that i am tone deaf...and cant sing...GREAT TIMING BEFORE MY HSC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but i knew all along i guess....kill me.
- we are writing a pointless story in exploring early childhood (about a moon) when you are the moon and you have a chalky white face it makes your teeth look yellow!
- maddi said i reminded her of principle skinner when hes chasing bart whos wagging :) because she slapped me on the bottom and ran away and i just walked to her and scared her 8)


CAN SOMEONE PLEASE GIVE ME SUGGESTIONS OF A COSTUME FOR MY MONOLOGUE? IM A TEENAGE MURDERER BEING INTERVIEWED.

hey i found a funny video from a few months back... makes me laugh...THIS IS FOR YOU MADDI



maddi is the only person who laughs at my jokes recently and i love her for it

sing me a smile maddi

A night with the Smithwick's. (feat Ely.)

right now i am scribing ely. she is typing...hi i am typing8)
soo did my drama performances just before and i guess it went alright. I was in a little bit of a crazy mood mind you.
When Ely did her performance, I seriously could not stop laughing just when I was calming down. She screamed to the audience "BREASTFEEDING BABY." And I could not breathe.
Just shouting out that Ely and Maddi and Judd and EVERYONE were superb. But seriously El. You were really good....(thanks ceri...as were you:) ilyilyilyily hahaha)
After drama we were in Pete's car (my faja - ely) and we're like "Hey let's go to maccas."
after quite the arguement with Pete whether to go to maccas or not, we just ended up going. Now, I want you to experience going to McDonalds drive thru with the Smithwick family.
Firstly, Ely wanted a McChicken meal. Pete called into the speaker "One mexican meal"
then..I ordered a large chips. Pete called into the speaker "One large chip"
All of a sudden, I ordered a frozen coke. The lady put this down and left. Ely misinterpreted this, and didn't know I wanted that frozen coke and she was screaming into the speaker to delete the frozen coke. "HELLO??!?! HELOOOO!! ARE YOU THERE? ARE YOU LISTNING TO ME?"
After I explained that I had infact ordered that frozen coke, she calmed down.
When we finally got to the counter, the lady gave us a bag and we started moving on. Then we discovered that Sophie didn't have her salad. So again, Ely started screaming for the salad. "CRAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!"
He didn't forget about the salad after all.. :|

Anyway i'm going to bounce. I'm probably boering Ely by making her type this..(I'm actually having a ball Ceri.)
(Any spelling mistakes are due to Ely)
Peace out rabbit.

vlog

hahaha what its like in the walls of ceris house...ITS FUN

a standard ceri day (very teenage)

does anyone else have really bad troubles waking up in the morning? i didnt get up till like 8.30 today, thats why i look like shit in school everyday! haha!
so this is what basically happens every friday afternoon/night. dad goes out with his friends and has 'a drink' (obv more than one) and they frigging say they can't afford $150 which i can pay them back for!! (i really wanna go to soundwave), and my mum stays in and sometimes invites a couple of people over..
I get angry when my mum starts talking about my personal life, but when this particular person starts trying to act like my mother and ask personal questions it really pushes my buttons...
'why on earth are you wearing that?'
'got a boyfriend yet?'
'no you can't drink your not old enough'
'i know you have a boyfriend because who would write "i love you" outside your window'

okay now i can understand my mother saying these things to me, but she doesnt! shes good she leaves me alone (sometimes) and on rare occasions she lets me have a drink..
but not on any circumstances is it this persons buisness to say these things to me!

by the way these sort of questions and statements are always asked

i was wearing casual clothes
NO i do not have a boyfriend for the 9429365546 time in the 6408768726846646 times you have asked me
i wanted to have a drink for new years and i was asking my mum and this person butted in
judd and stefan are infact my friends and NO ONE in my house hold believes it was not my boyfriend who wrote that outside my window!!
ASDSJHGKJHLKJ im gonna have a mental breakdown

righty oh... this might turn out to be deep or some sort of diary entry because im gonna talk about how much i am going to miss this stage in life.
okay so i know i complain about how much i hate school and want to die everytime i go... but theres alot of moments in there where i just want it to last forever... all the people im not going to see everyday. and might not see at all again! this year i have become more closer to some people then i ever thought i would.. and we all have havent we? i am at the point of realisation (and yes i have been thinking this all day in school) that i am really not ready for it to end just yet. i still think myself as a young child. I don't want to worry about things like cars or money. i dont want to worry about anything at all! but i guess we are all feeling like that right? albury high peeps? oh god please dont let me be the only one feeling like this! haha
okay so my friends in albury high this blog is a shout out.

might just name a few of you
so theres.. jezza judd stefan trent mel caity chenae holly and everyone else who sits with us!
im glad its you guys who i ended up befriending i never once had to be someone else, and a day cant go by without me laughing when im with you. you may not know when im in my moments of loving life and school but belive me there is alot of them! and their all involving you and the things you guys say, and the things that make me laugh even though they dont have to be funny its just because its you! and i love you guys! and im not the sort of person who throws the word 'love' around i well and truely love you guys and i thank you all for befriending me!

and then...theres these 3 girls who have changed my life, who i will never forget my moments with... maddi mady and ely, where would i be without you? (jeez im cool for tearing up writing a blog) you have taught me so much, taught me about friendship. this might be the time to reveal my biggest fear now (haha im lame) and that is losing you, i never want to lose touch, i want us to call eachother everyday..and when we are old i want us to talk about what we are knitting. i want us to be at eachothers weddings, be at eachothers sides when anything goes wrong. if im in wales or end up not being around you and one of you get in trouble or something bad happens..i want you to call me and i will be with you as fast as my legs can go. i never want you to hesitate to ask me for anything, you have given me everything, you girls ARE everything to me! you are the ones that make me laugh out loud for no reason. seriously i cannot and dont want to imagine my life without you, i hate to see my life before i knew you girls! you've changed me. you've made me me! youve made me see who i really am! this is so cliche...should i rap it up? cause i can go on for ages..
but i have never loved anyone as much as i love you 3 girls. you all bring me something different and i thank you for that.
(you know im telling the truth because you know me and the word love) haha
(ps im not a lesbian bitches)




okay enough of me being deep cause im crying like a bitch
oooo awkward

lets talk about how my music trials went!!
had to start 2 of my songs again
my vioce broke in like every 2 lines
and i cant sing for shit?
why did i choose music????
WHYYYYYYYY
shoulda just played really bad guitar.
oh and you know whats gross? veggie sausages.. but they were bearable
and packet gravy is gross aswell

yeah sorry veggie people but all this time ive been having gravy with my veggies!! i feel so cheap! my mother didnt tell me she made gravy with meat
damnit... but now that i know im having gross packet gravy
but im into risotto its gooooooooooooooooooooooooood :)
okay so im gonna stop writing and i dont really think anyones gonna read it..
i'll post it on myspace but no ones interested on myspace damnit!!!
okay sorry going now
BYEEEE XOX

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next year is MY YEAR woooo
nans coming down, my cousin kirsty is coming down (to australia)
im turing 18 (y)
and school and exams will be over
better have a job by then though otherwise my life will be over!
yeah my blogs are the best!!!
what on earth am i meant to talk about!?!?!