the new year or the old year?

2009. wales. exams. school.

school is over and i dont want it to be.

i'm not at home.

my results were a tad low.

but i had the experience of school, and i wouldnt be friends with who i am today.
atleast i had that trip home, with all the funny times, with jess and my uncle terry and alot more
and my exams are over.

things i have to look forward to for next year.
turning 18
getting a job = money.
money = christmas &new years at home.

i plan to save up enough money move to wales and start my career there. who knows what it will be.
hopefully i'll be living there by 2012

i love my life and what it has brought me
but like everyone else i selfishly want more and more

also. i miss my cousin Jade. I wish she would keep in touch. maybe i will talking to her in 2010
aswell as my Cousin mikey

hypocrites

its funny when people call eachother hypocrits because we all are. i'm a big one! without a doubt. but i'm glad i can admit it. i hate it when people i dont know call out of cars to me. but it is fun when you're the person in the car.
i hate it when people pull jokes on me. but i love pulling jokes on other people.
we all can give but we can not take with these things.
we can give our opinions. but can't listen to others.
we can laugh at people, but not have people laugh at us.
we are all the same and we are all pretty much unintended bullies.

i can give advice..but not take it.

we all think we are always right, because in our minds we are. and its a good thing.

it doesnt matter once you have grown up a bit though, life goes on and you begin to care less of what people think of you.

the cause of this blog relates to someone calling me a hypocrite and me laughing because i realised i am one, and so is the person calling me one. and so is everyone elses in a way. its actually kind of funny.

everyone do what you want to do

The blogs I write are never usually whats going on inside my head.
So here it is.
About 5-6 months ago someone told me to become vegetarian, and being the pushover I am I stopped eating meat. This honestly didnt change my views on things at all. and quite frankly i'm not much of an animal person, birds freak me out.
The only animals I like are dogs and cows, and thats the way its always been, I am not all of a sudden one with nature just because i've stopped eating meat. and if people didnt eat meat there would be to many animals in the world.
So I guess the reason why I am still vegetarian is out of fear and guilt.
This is nothing to do with the animals, the only reason I became vegetarian in the first place is because i was scared the person who told me to wouldnt approve of me if i didnt, and i wouldnt be suprised if he actually didnt approve of me.
and the only reason why i still am not eating meat now is because im scared other people wont approve of me, and still, i wouldnt be suprised if they wont.
but the thing is, people chose to do and think what they want. I don't want to be a vegetarian, and im sure other vegetarians dont want to be either. i'm losing me protein, I dont feel as energetic, i'm sleepy, my skin is turning weird. and i enjoy eating chicken. And i havent eaten it for half a year. And i am going to start eating it again because i want to.
I'm not going to try and impress people by showing them i can live without meat, ofcourse i can. but i dont really want to. And i want to do what i want, and i want to say what i want, and i want to have my own opinions. and other people should say their own aswell.
some things get forced upon people and its not fair.

i also hate how people judge other people for eating meat. what the hell is with that. i have read so many things with vegetarians saying meat eaters are 'monsters' or 'murderers'. and no its not just judd. its plenty of people. Some people just don't eat meat because its the 'cool' thing to do these days.
I don't need people giving me guilt trips.

And don't just assume i'm wrong because of my spelling mistakes, or poor grammar. because i know exactly what i'm talking about. i may not be as smart as most. but i know what i'm saying.

nobody should let other people try and change you. or try and make you feel guilty for the things you do. just be who you are. theres no better way.

shopping

im going to get mothers chrimbo pressie today, its kinda sad cause mum hasnt told me to get dads chrimbo present.
soo im kinda in a fiddle

this is what i do

today i was sitting with my legs in the pool, watching laura and the baby splash around and stuff.
and i was laughing at aleisha because she was laughing. (she loves the water) and all of a sudden laura shouts out 'BEE!!' and i nearly fall in because i jumped. turns out laura was joking and i could have killed her...
a moment later she called out 'BEE!!' again... and this time i jumped straight into the pool, fully clothed, because i didnt want to get stung. but there was a bee there that time, so i pretty much saved myself. hahahaha i hate bees :(
but then i had a nice swim in my clothes. :|

i just realised

i laugh too much (yeah old news)
but what i actually just realised is how in the hell can you laugh too much!?
why?
its like i start laughing and then someone goes 'oh here she goes, when will it stop?'
i dont want to stop! i love laughing, and i consider myself lucky from the amount of things i find funny, because if i didnt i wouldnt laugh as much, there for i wouldnt be as happy.
i guess when i laugh its my way of showing im happy, if you get me? and i laugh alot because i am usually happy? i dunno its just the way i am.

and i dont like it when im smiling to myself and someones like 'what are you smiling at' cause the truth is i have no idea what im smiling at im probably just happy.

the post man enter's the ward house

haha so the post man comes into reception the other day, and asks me to sign something, i said 'i can't do that i'll just get my mum'
hahahaha and then i called up the stairs 'MUUUUMMMMMMM' and dad calls back down 'YEEEPPP!' and i just pretend its normal..and i call back up 'THE POSTMANS HERE!' and then i say to the post man ' she's just coming' and i smile and leave...hahaha his face was priceless and then my dad comes down, and talks to the postman. poor postman :)

im evil pure evil

:|

hello :)
ely says hello.
stefans staring
ely says 'no i didnt'
judds singing
im typing
stefans still staring into space..
judds paused.... keeping singing juddles..
....
hes started again :) yeah!
hes singing his and woodys song
elys playing the harmonica...
shes shit at it.
i wanna go :|
GOODBYE

back to boredality

i really feel like doing somehting but i'm stuck here posting a blog about it!
i hate busy people.
haha :)
tomorrow i will find someone (L)

parents

I have no secrets to myself, but there is no one who knows everything about me, there are some things that i can tell people and there are some things i can't. i love to talk, i hate being ignored. I am loud, and i am quiet.
I am just like both of my parents.
its funny when dad and i fight, we both have to end it. and we both can't be ignored so when we try and ignore eachother we both end up fighting again, constant circle's, and when my mum and i fight. its just one sentence and then tension.
then we all get over it.
and when it comes to sence of humor.. i'm just like my dad all up! we don't like being serious. my dad is still a child, and i know i'll still be a child when im his age aswell.

okay IM BORED!

maddi and ely

are back and black...........and red ...hahahahaha
so last night we go to ely's for dinner because i missed them oh so much, we had a little christmas show off jenna whilst eating dinner which was nice.
ely came back all bronze and shit....maddi will be bronze soon. shes a bit paranoid because ely said it looked like she has rabies. hahahahahaa. SUN SCREEN KIDS. so anyway they bought me and mady a couple of bracelettes, and i took a picture :) THANKS GUYS
and they had a great time by the way, incase you were wondering. cause i was wondering, and they did. :)

yeah i look a mess I JUST HAD A SHOWER OKAY!?!

pimped

yayyy i worked out how to pimp my blogger!
it gives an ocean vibe.....i copied madison's myspace picture....i love the colour of her room :|
:)
my header picture doesnt really fit in with the layout though...
oh well :D

ohh wow

its decemeber and i didnt even realise it..
ely turns 18 this month WOW! then theres only 2 left to turn 18 :) me and maddi
and then i'm after ely and maddis after me!
and its also chrsitmas this month!!! and i just realised that this was a big year.... i went home this year! i finished school this year, i bonded with friends this year. i love seeing how much people have matured since younger years, just looking back and seeing how people have grown is touching :)

thoughts

now that i'm finished school, i think i will be reading more, you'd think i would read more whilst i was in school :S.. but i find concentrating easier when i'm not worrying. hahaha, anyways i'm currently reading the ring. and i've already made a fair way through the book and i only got it today, i know that i would never get that far in this sort of book in one day if i was still in school. its pretty cool, i actually know what i'm reading! the words arent going blury! hahahaha maybe i will learn more now that i've finished school? :) and i've got a whole 2 other books to read after this, i love reading.