letters to myself <3

cool week....well not that cool but cool day :)
got a few stories to tell you..........

shower time
so i was having a nice shower... go to my room in my towell and close the blinds then start drying my hair and shit....to my suprise the blinds SHOT OPEN and people are across the road looking up and im just standing there naked...........i was mortified. not to mention i live on the highway so there were also cars zooming passed...AND it was drak outside and my lights were on. so i ducked in shame and never got over it....but im over it now, thats why im telling it on my blog HAHA funny right?

good news
well it all started when maddi went to get her p's.. she had said she wouldnt come back to school if she didnt get her p's......so after double community i was hoping for the best.....and as i was walking to the seats all i could see was a 'haha no.' and i was like MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII
she's got her p's!!! awesome awesome awesome
then she came round to my crib and we went for a cruise...did a couple of deanys and what not. and as we were driving ely was like 'oh yeah ceri i got my soundwave ticket' THE FOURSOME ARE GOING TO SOUNDWAVE!!! LOOK OUT SOUNDWAVE!! im sorry but i love bonding time with my bestest friends!!! it just made me happy, i was depresso because i kept on thinking ely wouldnt get her ticket...but shes got it and im a happy chap! i love you guys!!! mady maddi and ely are the best people you will ever meet...seriously.

letter to myself...
HAHAHA so in english about a year ago we had to write a letter to ourselves saying our goals and shit...pretty sure i didnt achieve any of mine...but im going to recite this letter to you

dear ceri ward
you are cool because you are writing a letter to yourself.
Anyways, try and get a hairdressing apprentiship.
you better have had a job by the time you read this, keep trying or daddy wont be proud.
don't give up on your guitar so you can play well for wales.
don't be afraid to sing your bloody heart out (AHAHAHAHA!!) so far if you have succeeded all of this i am proud of you. or myself, or whatever.
write a wonderfull story i dont care if it is a short story or a novel, but i know you like making up stories.
dont be lazy, physically. because i know you hate homework (TRUE DAT) take dylan out for walkies more he'll love it. dont care what people say or think about you. dont change for anybody, dont give into peer pressure. try and atleast get your Ls because i think you would need a car in the future. you may need to try and lose some weight FATTY! (HAHA!) dont get stressed out and take it out on your friends, ignore your parents when their not being fair..or just do as they tell you
LOVE CERI (YOU)

god i'm a loser........jeez ceri im not that fat! HAHAHAHAHA!! i noticed i got a little deep in some parts... yeah pretty much didnt do any of my goals...i'm ashamed :(




and dearest sophie.. im sorry i left you on facebook dad came in (mother effer) but i noticed you said im always giddy :D

you want to know the reason why im always cheery? its because im always around you guys......you all make me so happy and im thankfull for it! and i love laughing with you








alright........maddi im so proud of you bitch!

RIP drama performances

i havent written a blog in a while! i just havent had much to talk about.....
soo heres a video before we did drama performances
before this i was in a completely phsyco mood... but i'd calmed down by here haha :P
alrighty watch away!

ely farted

trying to cover it up by changing the convo.
but she knows she did
lucky the people sitting next to us have their earphones in 8)
for her...
'how long have you been holding that in for el?'
'i dont know i just laughed at you and it came out'
we're in year 12 and we're the only ones here NOT studying
haha woopsies
i dont wanna be on the computer i wanna sit on a table and talk
but elys anti social :(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(
but the moral of this blog is....ely farted cause i made her laugh and we laughed even more
:)

music makes the people come together yeaahhh

so just got home from music performances, everyone did their thang, family memebers actually came for me this time :) thanks dad and laura...
so anyways, i did mine.....thanks people who help me out in a lovers complaint!! truely appreciate it, i shall get you gifts. yeah none of you will read this anyways :)
got a bit into it this time...usually i get nervous...but people accept my crappy voice so i just did a little dance and chilled pointed at maddi and my dad... dad is the only parent that actually gets embarrest by his daughter hahahaa
and then there was some more peeps...dad liked marshal and sam. he should replace me with you guys :P
and then we ate biscuits and shit...(ely didnt push a little boy out of the way this time!) hahahhaa
and then there was judd (sounded awesome even with a cold!)

AND THEN there were people brought to tears to this performance by a particular lady..
MADISON DORMER
seriously you amaze me...i envy everything about you! you talented girl you!!!!!!
and the other three girls there were awesome too!
dad was singing hallejulia on the way back from the car and i was like SHUTTTUP your ruining it (starts singing it myself) :P
asdfghjklk
might i add i straightend my hair for once today :) just saying..i tied it up anyway
cool story ceri..
this blog is shit i just wanted to post it saying how good mady was
you should listen to her shit!
hahaha should i say shit one more time? shit.
im a hypocrit cause just yesterday i was saying i was sick of swearing :P



okay well im off SEEYAS
xxx

vlog vlog NO 2

baby time

homeland

I think this subject deserves a blog,
when ceri went to wales :)
when i was arriving in porthcawl in a car i was overwhelmed by how green it was...and all flashbacks and memories popped into my head at once, where i fell of my bike when i was first learning to ride, having chips by the prom, swimming in the see in the dark and winter with jess while it was puring down with rain. :)
i arrive at my nans, it gave me a great feeling, like i had never left, she had a new tv and stuff but nothing has really changed in that house, it all smells the same, looks the same feels the same..and i had never felt more at home in my intire life. i know i was overly jetlagged but i just did not want to go to sleep..i was forcing myself to stay awake, there was heaps of people i was dieing to see.
when terry (my uncle) had arrived, he had only been with us for no longer than 2 minuites and i was already in tears of laughter, he still bagged the shit out of me, but only he can get away with it.
so by the time mum dad and laura were having a jetlag nap... i was on the computer talking to jess.. i desperatly wanted to see her...so we decided to meet up.
and there she was..the moment i saw her i dropped all my bags (with my camera and my ipod and my ds all on the top) and pretty much pounced on her, see me and jess have this thing, when we are with eachother we click, we bring ourselves out of eachother.. so after we made a fool of ourselves in public by jumping up and down hugging and screaming, we headed back to her crib and started playing guitar!!
jesses dad rang.. and jess answerd the phone laughing and he knew i was there... haha i just love that about the jones's, we is family......the wards and the jones have clicked since my dad and phil met back in highschool... and they are still going pretty well now
we skip down to generations! haha
me and jess pretty much spent the whole time together, i got to meet her mum mandy and her family on her mothers side! which i never have done, and i've known jess all my life!
i might narrow down the things i did in wales in dot points
- went to the farmers (pub) like every night
- kicked my shoe off at jess's gig and it landed on this poor guys head...HAHAHA a sotry has to be told, jess was like to me 'remember when you kicked you shoe off on the train tracks?" and im like "yeah i was like..." *accidently kicks show off, lands on guys head, guy smells it, i die a little inside*
- oujia'd with jess and jamie, and laughed at how scared jamie was... *comes to play, glass moves...runs out of room, comes back and plays again* i'm sorry jamie but that whole time i was dieing to laugh.
- fell over on a bus while waving at boys (i was being stupid) yeah i can pick up anyone (h)
-went to oakwood park (theme park) and bonded with family and jess:) nanny even came too!! and terry road on a rolercoaster!! it was funny cause hes scared of them! but i love em!!
- i met my cousin evan, he's so cute, and he defaintly got along with aleisha!
- attempted some break dancing at Terry's 50th
- road down a big slide with my skinny jeans on and got a massive plummers, Jess even noticed so i told her she had one too (even though she didnt) i was just trying to make myself less embarrest
- thought jamie asked if he could shoot jess with his gun for fun with his suit on and i got scared.....
- went to some crappy museum but it was fun being with my family because they make any situation funny, then we just played games on the grass? lol
- d&m'd with everyone like a mother licker...esp jess
- got heaps of easter eggs so me and jess had a chocolate fess!!
- Jess and i wrote a song sbout the ouija board and how jamie is a virgin princess, opera style...nearly as good as the rap we made while she was here might post that shizz on my blog actually
- watched phil and jamies acoustic gig and it was one of my last days so sorry if i was a TINY bit depresso that night haha.
there was SO SO SO SO much more big thing but its seriously the little things that cound all the time for me!! i always remember the little things that mean the most to me, wales is my home and always will be, i am from there, i originated from there, i am a true welsh (except for the singing part, but thats just the ward family, we cant sing)
if anyone mentioned in the blog is reading this, just know that i miss you all so very much and not a day goes by when im not thinking of you. i love australia i really do! but wales is my home and i will never forget it. and it always breaks my heart to leave my home...or to have someone i love leave me, its the hardest thing in the world... don't get me wrong i love everyone in australia!! i just miss everyone in wales.


you found the ghost in me
you found the person in my ghost
i made you with a pen
it was quater to ten
oujia oh ouija how did i meetcha?
jamie thought ceri was moving the glass
but she wasnt
HE THOUGHT HE THOUGHT
omg i think its right! for i am the virgin princess!

HAHAHA mine and jesses song about the ouija board.. i might have forgotten most of it but the virgin princess was the funniest bit anyways.... *crickets* YOU JUST HAD TO BE THERE

my mady and jess about 3 years ago when jess came and visited me, me and jess wrote a rap, mady came over and badda bim badda boom YOU HAVE THIS VIDEO!



please let me have the exuse that this was ages ago (not that i wouldnt do this sort of thing today)

i wish all days were as fun as yesterday

"yesterday all my troubles seemed so far away"
haha thats not me being emotional, that song came into my head and i wanted to type it down.


im never the sort to do this, but do you ever just not speak because your just watching? and laughing? yeah its nice.. i rarely do it because im the sort of person who has to be in the conversation.. haha sorry i was just thinking about how much of a dickhead i can be sometimes...not towards people, but yeah sometimes i tend to look for attention without even noticing it, but when i look at videos of me and shit im always like HEEEEYYYYYYYYYYYYYY 8) 8) oh god i hope im not like that all the time.
sooo if you ever think 'woooaahhh ceris being loud' i really dont mean it :)

so my story of yesterday
it was a nice day, i must say... maybe i should stop rhyming hey? OKAY ENOUGH see i'm even like this while writing blogs
SOOOOOOO my story of yesterday
im going to say it like it IS a story

yesterday (all my troubles seem so far away(just had to)) was fun and funny and lovely and shit
maddi had fun driving without a liscence (the bad girl) and i had fun on the swings :) ... yayyy (the nice things that happen when you decide not to go to school for a day)
then we did nothing...but it was something, if you get me? its just that feeling when something is there even though your sitting around doing nothing you just feel happy? you better know what i mean bloggers :|
then we went to judds house... and when we got in we all laid on the couch waiting for them to come out but they didnt! thats why the joke got ruined. :|
so we just went in his room and watched videos on his laptop... mostly effed up porn..for some reason he has beastianity porn on his laptop? smoooth judd. then we watched his home movies and he was taking a shit somewhere? BTW JUDD THIS IS PAYBACK FOR TELLING EVERYONE MY PEE STORY (but i dont really care it was kinda funny) and then we all just sat around and laughed and shit.. and me ely maddi and mady were argueing on wether maddi said if jimmy was a gemini or not (she didnt say it btw)
maddi you competitive bitch.
i kinda wanna put pictures up from yesterday but i have none :(
OH OH OH OH OH OH OH
AND THEN!!!!
we leave judds...casually go and get in the car....the drive off a little...do it again...they drive off a little again...so i start screaming...maddis pissing herself laughing, and this was like in the middle of the night and they drive off!! so i run back into judds house and wait for them to come knocking..they do, i get in the car and madys not in there and me and el tell stefan to DRIIIIIIIIVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVEEEEEEEEEEE
ofcourse he wouldnt
so that pay back made me feel like shit because it didnt work.
but we eventually got back to mady's and watched maddi get drunk on goon...i really wanted to film it but we didnt end up doing it so i just fell asleep..
sophs comfy to sleep next to shes a good spooner...dont you hate spooning people and its not cuddly? yeah im talking shit again
SO TODAYYYYYYY
me and el went to see beauty and the beast..and el fell asleep (hahahaha) that son of a bitch, there was hardly any cast! where were all the casts!! but yeah it was an okay piece of beauty and the beast work.
then we got home and watched mighty boosh and i fell asleep
then el went home
then i watched friends with my sister
and here i am now! :)
btw...i probably should mention who was involved in this day there was - sophie ely mady d maddi b madison t (where was maddi r?) stefan judd edwina jimmy
andd yeah i wasnt there.....

wow this was a long piece of shit of a blog... who read it all?


haha our true selves shining through

yeah dont know why i put a pic of a tree on here



guilty as charged :|

now i'm being anti social

i came to write a blog because ely and maddi were playing a frigging board game, so i'm just like IM GONNA GO WRITE A BLOG
and now they've stopped playing and everyone having d&ms....what they don't know is that im listening.. :)
right now i am at elys with maddi soph and stefan and i feel as though i really need a shower...ooooooooohhhh to much information? well its okay i'll have one after i write this :)
yesterday was sad but happy anf funny and sad again..
i had my drama hsc... i think i went like heaps under time... but i did okay..i hope :|
and waiting was the boringest/funnest thing ever, we played big brother and made videos on judds lappy and had sing alongs and shit! :)
that was fun guys! haha before i went on for my monologue i nearly had a mental breakdown...when they call for you it seriously feels like your going out there to die..but your not you just going to perform a monologue! you just get that scared for screwing up.

right then, so afterwards we all met up after school, judd got his lip peirced...and he was a depresso and i didnt like it, but then he was alright later on..
we went to maccas for tea and went and saw a movie! it was push! it was goooood. (dakota needed a longer skirt though, judd wouldnt mind raping her) and i kinda was the only one who didnt get the movie.... cool ceri. but i understood the whole concept so im not completely dumb.

THEN we went back to elys. (maddi ely jezza judd and i) and we told funny stories :) may not tell you what their about though because this would be ONE embarressing blog!
then stefan rocked up withe lollies...and we ate all his snakes. im sorry stefan. then we all nearly feel asleep so judd and jezza went home and stefan stayed the night...yayyy

now its the next day and soph rocked up in the morning
and i kinda promised her i'd give a d&m in this blog :)
but i want to dont get me wrong boiiii

right so sophie, whenever someone is feeling down or upset you always say the right thing and give the right advice, you just always make people feel better. sophie has a gift with deep convos, and the best thing is she likes to help other people, she likes to talk about other peoples problems other than her own, and shes beautiful in that way....not to mention shes hot (in a non lesbian way)
SOPH ONE FAVOUR
stop calling lesbian
love you!!
:)

heres some pictures of ely on maddis soldiers
(what i was talking about being the funniest thing ever,sorry about the awesome quotes)

step one

step two


and no step 3 for you!!8)

drama time

right now i am in drama tech using judds laptop...i feel so cool i should be in starbucks or some shit.
wondering what judd is doing? hes do his group performance!! yaayyyyy (loolking good guys!) you guys dont argue as much as my drama group:(
i love ely :)
it appears to be fucking plane!!! go darcie (judd dont boss darcie around) judd made a group member of mine leave and a group member of his cry all in one day!!!! judd is evil
just like co co slams
he has no idea im writing this
im gonna say what hes doing
- discussing what to do with his group
- spinning around like a ballerina
-saying he loves god
- catches my eye (still has no idea im writing a blog)

i wanna go home now..
OHHH last night was so funny i couldnt stop laughing
from now on im am known as ceridaberi :P
i filmed myself laughing but im not posting it its gay...actually i will the day i get 100 comments on this shit :) (all from different people)

when i was practising my monologue before i was in killer mode until ely started talking to me about something about her blogspot...that fool
shes reading this now and laughing....

ITS A BOMB
judds yelling like an army soldier

okie dokes i might start to wrap it up now
even though i am really boredddddd
the left right left is looking syncronised now1!!!!!
well done guys! :)
okay seriously im gonna go now

'ILL TELL YOU WHAT WE'RE FIGHTING FORRRRR'

BYE GUYS 8)

this blogs for maddi to read when she gets home form work

REAL LIFE CERI STORY TIME
-my drama feedback from last night
"dont hold babies...people were going around holding babies...just dont do it!"
thanks miss gleason (y) that helped me alot :)
-and omgomgomgomgomgomg
TODAY IN ENGLISH JOEL DAY SAID HE WAS GONNA CUT HIS HAIR!
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!
-i have come to acceptance that i am tone deaf...and cant sing...GREAT TIMING BEFORE MY HSC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but i knew all along i guess....kill me.
- we are writing a pointless story in exploring early childhood (about a moon) when you are the moon and you have a chalky white face it makes your teeth look yellow!
- maddi said i reminded her of principle skinner when hes chasing bart whos wagging :) because she slapped me on the bottom and ran away and i just walked to her and scared her 8)


CAN SOMEONE PLEASE GIVE ME SUGGESTIONS OF A COSTUME FOR MY MONOLOGUE? IM A TEENAGE MURDERER BEING INTERVIEWED.

hey i found a funny video from a few months back... makes me laugh...THIS IS FOR YOU MADDI



maddi is the only person who laughs at my jokes recently and i love her for it

sing me a smile maddi

A night with the Smithwick's. (feat Ely.)

right now i am scribing ely. she is typing...hi i am typing8)
soo did my drama performances just before and i guess it went alright. I was in a little bit of a crazy mood mind you.
When Ely did her performance, I seriously could not stop laughing just when I was calming down. She screamed to the audience "BREASTFEEDING BABY." And I could not breathe.
Just shouting out that Ely and Maddi and Judd and EVERYONE were superb. But seriously El. You were really good....(thanks ceri...as were you:) ilyilyilyily hahaha)
After drama we were in Pete's car (my faja - ely) and we're like "Hey let's go to maccas."
after quite the arguement with Pete whether to go to maccas or not, we just ended up going. Now, I want you to experience going to McDonalds drive thru with the Smithwick family.
Firstly, Ely wanted a McChicken meal. Pete called into the speaker "One mexican meal"
then..I ordered a large chips. Pete called into the speaker "One large chip"
All of a sudden, I ordered a frozen coke. The lady put this down and left. Ely misinterpreted this, and didn't know I wanted that frozen coke and she was screaming into the speaker to delete the frozen coke. "HELLO??!?! HELOOOO!! ARE YOU THERE? ARE YOU LISTNING TO ME?"
After I explained that I had infact ordered that frozen coke, she calmed down.
When we finally got to the counter, the lady gave us a bag and we started moving on. Then we discovered that Sophie didn't have her salad. So again, Ely started screaming for the salad. "CRAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!"
He didn't forget about the salad after all.. :|

Anyway i'm going to bounce. I'm probably boering Ely by making her type this..(I'm actually having a ball Ceri.)
(Any spelling mistakes are due to Ely)
Peace out rabbit.

vlog

hahaha what its like in the walls of ceris house...ITS FUN

a standard ceri day (very teenage)

does anyone else have really bad troubles waking up in the morning? i didnt get up till like 8.30 today, thats why i look like shit in school everyday! haha!
so this is what basically happens every friday afternoon/night. dad goes out with his friends and has 'a drink' (obv more than one) and they frigging say they can't afford $150 which i can pay them back for!! (i really wanna go to soundwave), and my mum stays in and sometimes invites a couple of people over..
I get angry when my mum starts talking about my personal life, but when this particular person starts trying to act like my mother and ask personal questions it really pushes my buttons...
'why on earth are you wearing that?'
'got a boyfriend yet?'
'no you can't drink your not old enough'
'i know you have a boyfriend because who would write "i love you" outside your window'

okay now i can understand my mother saying these things to me, but she doesnt! shes good she leaves me alone (sometimes) and on rare occasions she lets me have a drink..
but not on any circumstances is it this persons buisness to say these things to me!

by the way these sort of questions and statements are always asked

i was wearing casual clothes
NO i do not have a boyfriend for the 9429365546 time in the 6408768726846646 times you have asked me
i wanted to have a drink for new years and i was asking my mum and this person butted in
judd and stefan are infact my friends and NO ONE in my house hold believes it was not my boyfriend who wrote that outside my window!!
ASDSJHGKJHLKJ im gonna have a mental breakdown

righty oh... this might turn out to be deep or some sort of diary entry because im gonna talk about how much i am going to miss this stage in life.
okay so i know i complain about how much i hate school and want to die everytime i go... but theres alot of moments in there where i just want it to last forever... all the people im not going to see everyday. and might not see at all again! this year i have become more closer to some people then i ever thought i would.. and we all have havent we? i am at the point of realisation (and yes i have been thinking this all day in school) that i am really not ready for it to end just yet. i still think myself as a young child. I don't want to worry about things like cars or money. i dont want to worry about anything at all! but i guess we are all feeling like that right? albury high peeps? oh god please dont let me be the only one feeling like this! haha
okay so my friends in albury high this blog is a shout out.

might just name a few of you
so theres.. jezza judd stefan trent mel caity chenae holly and everyone else who sits with us!
im glad its you guys who i ended up befriending i never once had to be someone else, and a day cant go by without me laughing when im with you. you may not know when im in my moments of loving life and school but belive me there is alot of them! and their all involving you and the things you guys say, and the things that make me laugh even though they dont have to be funny its just because its you! and i love you guys! and im not the sort of person who throws the word 'love' around i well and truely love you guys and i thank you all for befriending me!

and then...theres these 3 girls who have changed my life, who i will never forget my moments with... maddi mady and ely, where would i be without you? (jeez im cool for tearing up writing a blog) you have taught me so much, taught me about friendship. this might be the time to reveal my biggest fear now (haha im lame) and that is losing you, i never want to lose touch, i want us to call eachother everyday..and when we are old i want us to talk about what we are knitting. i want us to be at eachothers weddings, be at eachothers sides when anything goes wrong. if im in wales or end up not being around you and one of you get in trouble or something bad happens..i want you to call me and i will be with you as fast as my legs can go. i never want you to hesitate to ask me for anything, you have given me everything, you girls ARE everything to me! you are the ones that make me laugh out loud for no reason. seriously i cannot and dont want to imagine my life without you, i hate to see my life before i knew you girls! you've changed me. you've made me me! youve made me see who i really am! this is so cliche...should i rap it up? cause i can go on for ages..
but i have never loved anyone as much as i love you 3 girls. you all bring me something different and i thank you for that.
(you know im telling the truth because you know me and the word love) haha
(ps im not a lesbian bitches)




okay enough of me being deep cause im crying like a bitch
oooo awkward

lets talk about how my music trials went!!
had to start 2 of my songs again
my vioce broke in like every 2 lines
and i cant sing for shit?
why did i choose music????
WHYYYYYYYY
shoulda just played really bad guitar.
oh and you know whats gross? veggie sausages.. but they were bearable
and packet gravy is gross aswell

yeah sorry veggie people but all this time ive been having gravy with my veggies!! i feel so cheap! my mother didnt tell me she made gravy with meat
damnit... but now that i know im having gross packet gravy
but im into risotto its gooooooooooooooooooooooooood :)
okay so im gonna stop writing and i dont really think anyones gonna read it..
i'll post it on myspace but no ones interested on myspace damnit!!!
okay sorry going now
BYEEEE XOX