great

you wish things would get better. but they get worse.


the worst thing in the world is to hear a grown man who raised you cry.
the worst thing to see is him trying to hold back tears just to make it okay for you.

my family are retarded griever's

worse things happen in the world. just keep telling yourself that people!

i think

My mum and dad are going to have to go home soon.
Dumpy's had a stroke.
thats what words mum said to me about 20 mins ago. then she kindly stated what a stroke was.
when she tells me bad news she looks at me for a reaction.
i dont know what to do or say. and i dont know how i feel yet.
i think my mind is saying he will be fine. because you begin to believe nothing bad can ever happen in this world.

but things happen.
things go bad.

they always get better though. the world would be a better place if everyone looked on the brightside

Jessica

ahh jess you make me laugh! i miss you.

ceri says (11:51 AM):
yeah but the next day was nice kinda
i was kinda seedy

JESS says (11:51 AM):
seedy?

ceri says (11:51 AM):
i have the worst hangovers lately
yeah like feeling gross

JESS says (11:51 AM):
oh yeah, i remember you saying that
i dont understand why seeds have anything to do with feeling gross, who made it up?

the new year or the old year?

2009. wales. exams. school.

school is over and i dont want it to be.

i'm not at home.

my results were a tad low.

but i had the experience of school, and i wouldnt be friends with who i am today.
atleast i had that trip home, with all the funny times, with jess and my uncle terry and alot more
and my exams are over.

things i have to look forward to for next year.
turning 18
getting a job = money.
money = christmas &new years at home.

i plan to save up enough money move to wales and start my career there. who knows what it will be.
hopefully i'll be living there by 2012

i love my life and what it has brought me
but like everyone else i selfishly want more and more

also. i miss my cousin Jade. I wish she would keep in touch. maybe i will talking to her in 2010
aswell as my Cousin mikey

hypocrites

its funny when people call eachother hypocrits because we all are. i'm a big one! without a doubt. but i'm glad i can admit it. i hate it when people i dont know call out of cars to me. but it is fun when you're the person in the car.
i hate it when people pull jokes on me. but i love pulling jokes on other people.
we all can give but we can not take with these things.
we can give our opinions. but can't listen to others.
we can laugh at people, but not have people laugh at us.
we are all the same and we are all pretty much unintended bullies.

i can give advice..but not take it.

we all think we are always right, because in our minds we are. and its a good thing.

it doesnt matter once you have grown up a bit though, life goes on and you begin to care less of what people think of you.

the cause of this blog relates to someone calling me a hypocrite and me laughing because i realised i am one, and so is the person calling me one. and so is everyone elses in a way. its actually kind of funny.

everyone do what you want to do

The blogs I write are never usually whats going on inside my head.
So here it is.
About 5-6 months ago someone told me to become vegetarian, and being the pushover I am I stopped eating meat. This honestly didnt change my views on things at all. and quite frankly i'm not much of an animal person, birds freak me out.
The only animals I like are dogs and cows, and thats the way its always been, I am not all of a sudden one with nature just because i've stopped eating meat. and if people didnt eat meat there would be to many animals in the world.
So I guess the reason why I am still vegetarian is out of fear and guilt.
This is nothing to do with the animals, the only reason I became vegetarian in the first place is because i was scared the person who told me to wouldnt approve of me if i didnt, and i wouldnt be suprised if he actually didnt approve of me.
and the only reason why i still am not eating meat now is because im scared other people wont approve of me, and still, i wouldnt be suprised if they wont.
but the thing is, people chose to do and think what they want. I don't want to be a vegetarian, and im sure other vegetarians dont want to be either. i'm losing me protein, I dont feel as energetic, i'm sleepy, my skin is turning weird. and i enjoy eating chicken. And i havent eaten it for half a year. And i am going to start eating it again because i want to.
I'm not going to try and impress people by showing them i can live without meat, ofcourse i can. but i dont really want to. And i want to do what i want, and i want to say what i want, and i want to have my own opinions. and other people should say their own aswell.
some things get forced upon people and its not fair.

i also hate how people judge other people for eating meat. what the hell is with that. i have read so many things with vegetarians saying meat eaters are 'monsters' or 'murderers'. and no its not just judd. its plenty of people. Some people just don't eat meat because its the 'cool' thing to do these days.
I don't need people giving me guilt trips.

And don't just assume i'm wrong because of my spelling mistakes, or poor grammar. because i know exactly what i'm talking about. i may not be as smart as most. but i know what i'm saying.

nobody should let other people try and change you. or try and make you feel guilty for the things you do. just be who you are. theres no better way.

shopping

im going to get mothers chrimbo pressie today, its kinda sad cause mum hasnt told me to get dads chrimbo present.
soo im kinda in a fiddle